Its stealing my lovely weekend mood away. And to think, the weekends ended not long ago, meaning that the next one is far far away. Freak you exams.
Anyway, tomorrow will be one freak of a boring day cause everyone is mugging their asses off. NOOOOO. And being Joan, I cant stand sitting down, in front of my lovely computer and study my life away alone. I need a study partner like YingLin or Mich or the best, Xp, that super diligent ass. But the good thing is that i'm later going to church for the renewing of wedding vows thing (well, not for me) and gay around with some of the rest. :D
Ohyea, today's trip to Ikea with Yinglin was fun. We shopped around like some gay couple looking for house appliances. And guess what? We walked the whole Ikea just to find some 3 for $2.90 picture frames. And of course gayed around Ikea like as if it was our home. As i said, every moment with my dearest Oneh Oneh is pure fun. :D
Me and The "3 frets down only lah!" and bigfoot Guitarist
Looking at the Be Electrified!Band pictures makes me smile much more. Its like the team is one big happy family. Love the guys! :D More pictures this Saturday?
"I know there must be more Make my heart pure as gold"
Tagbacks: Tabi:Nope! Its black, gold and silver. COOL RIGHT? Jared: Lmao, but u're still perverted! Jared is pervert-y, LALALA! SoonHao: thanks dude! all the best to you too. Huimin: YAY! :D Well, i dont know either. Astrid: Thanks! :D Cya around too. All the best for ur Midyears Nicole: HMPH! You never bring camera for me man!
Be Electrified!Band and Committee Photoshoot yesterday and Ushers today! Check them out! Those that want all the pics, come after me. :D
Overall, i think the band pictures are damn nice lah! :) The committee ones need a retake so I guess we need to choose one of these super busy days to go it? Ushers, your pics came out rather nice as well. But too bad, I am BIAS to the band. (HAHA, I’m joking) And, Tim, its not because of you that both pics turn out nice.
Anyway, about yesterday… The worship was good. Xiaowen, you did a good job okay? :DD External speaker yesterday. His message was hilarious and really powerful. I was really moved when it came to altar call. I knew i had to go for it cause He told me i really should. That burning feeling in the heart was like WOAH. Okay, maybe i dont know how to describe it after all. God is really working in our youth the year.
Anyway, another thing to be happy about is that Pastor Rach got our youth tees quotations already! 22Bucks for personalised AND collar. YIPPIE. :D Youth Tee, here we come! See, this is how God works. A really good reason to praise God! :D.
Exams tomorrow and I have not revised. Thats how busy i am. Enjoy the pictures peps. Off to work (like real. :D)
Livewire! Be Electrified! Band We bring music to life
and we act DAO
and VERY GAY. :D
this spells COMMITTEE. Yeps, Be Electrified! Committee. this is where all the hard work lies.
"Hi I am your USHER for today" Be Electrified! Ushers :D
Damn looking forward to it. Oh man, i hope i wont turn emo and become damn dead in the photos. Remember Be ElectrifiedBand and Committee, be there on time and bring your youth shirts!
Get your best smile out cause Livewire! is finally gonna hit the screens. :) Ok, Whatever.
Man, today was the best day of the week. Love it. Thanks dudes. :)))
P.S. Samuel, I love whacking you. Feet stepping game too. :D
"Mystery Unthinkable"
Tagbacks; Huimin': HAHA. thanks for cheering me up that day. :D Okay, okay, I'm EMOKID. I admit. :) just dont sing to me that ELMO song. Going for the Be Electrified! event right? :D Justin: Silence is golden. I think she cant stand me saying that she's noisy too. Oh, so you could sit with the girls? Naughty Naughty. Emelynn: If I'm emo, You are Pedophile. And since, i am Emokid, you are pedophile! Remember EIOWT? Tiffy: Thanks! :D Tiffany is Tiffany & Co. :)))) We should do that more often right? Haunts: Yeah man. Since i cant do TKD, i will use my mouth instead. (wait, that sounded wrong) Janice: Thanks. :D You are Rach's sister right? So CUTE! :D
I tagged quite a number of people in class all thanks to pure boredom. Wasted Post-Its man. But it was real fun.
Anyway, until now, i haven started studying and i still can calmly blog here and chat with people online. That isnt a good sign man. Having tests everyday has made exams like no big deal and there is no "kick" to study anymore. I think i will have to have several study dates with Michelle and YingLin to make me study. Hmm. Hints to you two!
I am totally dissatisfied with the quotation i get for the youth tee shirt! 25 bucks because of the personalized back. Anyway, I love the new design. *smiles* Thats team work from Xiaowen and I. Plus a HELL LOAD OF TIME spent! So DONT complain Livewire! people! Feedback?
Anyway, i am going to go swoon over someone's friendster account. Michelle, you know who am i talking about. :D
Caught your scent and couldn’t let go A fleeting glimpse and couldn’t say no Is it Love?
It’s about the way you drink your coffee, early in the morning Up to your lips and a little sip, oh too hot How you smile when you wake up next to me, your eyes still a little sleepy The way you handle silence with a shrug Or the songs you sing along with in the car, windows down for all to hear It’s the voice on the other end of the telephone line A gleam in your eye.
Love is the way you grow old together The way I pick my teeth or stay up too late How you get frustrated and sigh, roll your eyes It’s all about how you think back Remember that fleeting glimpse And the way it felt inside It’s about growing old, and still enjoying That sip of coffee And waking up next to you
"You want to be whole, you want to have purpose inside You want to have virtue and purify your mind
You want to be set free today Then lay it all down before the king" My Desire -Jeremy Camp
This speaks alot. It suddenly struck me while randomly clicking for songs on eSnips. It has a message behind it. Dont you think so?
Anyway, today has been one of really deep thoughts and emotions. Call me EmoKid but these thoughts always make me emo-ish and sad and sometimes way way way too high. Talk about the fluctuations. Yeah, thats me.
I haven studied, I haven done any homework, I haven even practiced any songs for the Be Electrified! event since Saturday. This sounds bad.
BUT! I have finished the Youth Tee! :D Black, Gold and Silver. Livewire! people, msg me to see it okay?
" Show me your face Oh Lord, Make my heart pure as gold Standing in awe of you, Your love surrounds me forever"
School has been really loading work and after school lessons eat up my rest time, making me reach home only at 6pm daily. Mid year exams are coming and i havent revise because lately i have been practicing electric for the Be Electrified youth event. (I will mention about this later) In fact, i am really getting worried because i really havent put any effort to revise. Large OH OHs.
Anyway, I will be talking more about this Be Electrified event more often these days. In case you guys dont know, I am in the Committee, in charge of Publicity. So I guess i can say i am doing my job here?
Okay, so this Be Electrified thing is actually a celebration of my church youth, Livewire! 2nd Anniversary. It is going to be held on the 09th of June 2007. Its coming real soon! There will be partying, games, really cool worship (cause i'm playing in it, just joking) and much more. Sounds interesting? Those interested can CONTACT ME okay? The more, the merrier!
the invites
The respond I'm getting is really great. Like Nicole's bringing 5 of her friends and stuff. Those Livewire! people reading, you get my hint! Bring your friends! And as for me, I am going to haunt some friends down so you guys better watch out!
As for 3A, this week has been one of the most peaceful and mad week. Peaceful cause a bunch of people *ahem ahem* isnt here and is away at OBS. Lesser of noise. Sorry lah, I really cant stand her voice. Mad, it is plainly understood right? Look at the number of A1s we're getting and the speed the teachers are going. Especially for Emaths. (95% of A1s for your info!)
and oh yeah, this REALLY cracked me up.
and before i forget, today is the 21st right? HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOWEN! 17 already! Older already so dont be so blur okay? No more sotong ball i hope. :D The past few months was really great. Thanks for being there for me. Hope you will like the present i got you. Best friends okay? Cheers.
I'm off to do the Be Electrified designs. I need you guys support okay? Really going nuts. See ya on the other side.
Tagbacks: Tabi: like hell yea! :) Michelle: Yea, I hope so too! Today was kinda disappointing right? We need more and longer practices I guess. I am sure we can do it. We got the right people. Anoy: Thanks. Your tag was really encouraging. But pls state your name next time. Tiffy: :D hey there! The song is real nice right? But i dont know the name of the girl. Sry. Emelynn: HAHA! You naughty lah. Keep blog-hopping when Mdm Rozy talking. Cyn: Yeah, okay. :) Good that it is. I dont want Jamie's long long tag, so much to read. Huimin: yeah man. one whole week of silence. drop by more often to know whats going on, okay?
People come and go and you can't stop that. You meet new ones, you leave old ones unwillingly, you share your love for new ones but no, you do not take back your love for the old ones. You leave it there. For whom? Her/Him? No, for you.
And it's 99% of the time, that we change for the worse not for the better. Yeah, you.
We're all changing. We're all moving. They come and they go, it is just like a cycle. Love that is shared between cant be measured.
I met him and I shared my love with him. We had the time of our lives and we shared it. We had our sorrows and we shared it too. But now as we move on, I am sure i will remember everything. Every single thing, every single promise.
For I believe in the thing called love. I believe it is there. Still between us. Even though things are of such now, i seriously want to believe it still exist. I will leave my love with him, i will leave my fond memories with him. Yes, it is for me. But i hope he does too.
Yes, I still do love him. I am trying, just for him.
This isnt the end, i know it. It cant end like this.
Okay, with regards to my previous post, i received many comments.
Firstly, to clarify whatever is going on before you guys throw stones and spew vulgarities at me, the situation here is about Cyn saying that 3A has no class unity because we were sitting at separate places as quoted from her, fly away and sit with their friends. Well, obviously i wasnt happy as i was one of those that sat not with that gang of 3A people but another gang of 3A people (namely Friza, Emelynn, Yingmin and XingLin) further at the back.
So we had different opinions. So what? I was just merely stating mine on my talking space.
Who doesnt want their class to be united? Well, am i hiding the fact that 3A isnt? Obviously not. In fact i stated it so clearly, so thats my reply for those that actually tagged saying that I am hiding the facts that 3A isnt united.
And as for those that said that i was breaking the unity. EXCUSE ME. Did i pick a fight with her? No. I was merely clarifying and correcting some things that Cyn said. Like what jamie said in her tag, they are interested to know about everyone's views. So i am just stating mine. Got a problem with that? So now, i am in the wrong to actually clarify my status?
Well, i am not going to get pissed for those people that are nameless and came here to vent their anger about my post. If you have something to say, like i did for Cynthia's post, have some freaking guts and actually put your bloody name. Just like what Michelle said, by tagging with your name, it means you have nothing to hide.
Some people dont like 3A, that is their problem and opinion, so whats wrong with stating it? I dont believe everyone actually agree with one. Then what in the world is debating and writing 13 marks Social Studies essays for? Got a opinion, the world is open to hear it, well, at least some people are.
Well, i dont know what other opinions you readers will have. But think twice before you tag, and remember to leave a name if you do. That would be greatly appreciated.
Tagbacks: justin: LOL. looks like you got yourself into some serious shit up there. But who says its a must to like 3A? I support your opinion cause i myself dont like certain classes too. :) jinyi: Who doesnt hope that their class is united? As i have stated, it is because we couldnt get a seat with the other bunch of 3A people, not that we purposely did. I believe this is where Cyn mentioned wrongly. It is not her fault though but i am just clarifying my point. I do understand that you want unity. Maybe one day there will be but its about 3A, it is 3A that has to bond, not only the RJC that does it. Do you agree? Anyways, thanks for your opinion. (Man, i sound so formal here) Michelle: Thanks girl! :D Yeah, you are so right. All the best for the worship leading for the Be Electrified event! Cyn: I see, i wont reply to that poser then, he isnt you in the first place. I hope i had made my point clear here. You get what i mean right? Jamie: Very long tag. Did i mention that i was NOT hoping for class unity? And why should i prevent class unity? That would be an absolutely weird thing to do, dont you think so? As for what justin said, i believe he is talking about the "not so popular classes" in cohorts, so what did u mean when you tagged him? Anyway, its considerate that you actually want to hear others opinions.
Last point, those that were nameless and tagged about my character or whatnot, GET A LIFE.
Okay, everyone in TK is talking about the dripping wet sports carnival we had yesterday.
Well, i am super pissed for the fact that we had to stay back till a freaking 5pm because other classes are playing the finals. I am also super pissed that some people dont understand the meaning of class unity.
okay, to make my second point clearer, go and read this. LINK.
we didnt won the class campion this year. plus, i think 3a isnt united. very sad huh. our class consisits of only yingtai, bolor, zahran, fendy, rjc, gwen, jinyi, aisyah, and peien. the rest duno where fly away to sit with their friends. so much about class unity. anyways, rjc's plan now is to unite the class x)
She says that we are not united just because the whole of 3A didnt seat together in the hall for prize giving.
Well, who is she to judge us that way. HUH? Mrs Lim isnt making noise that we are not in our classes, then why is she?
We want to sit with our friends, or in her words, fly to sit with our friends. What in the freaking world is wrong with that? Maybe its just her that she loves her gang too much to part from it. the RJC gang i mean.
Class Unity isnt what she wants, obviously. Why in the world is she blaming US for 3A's class unity? What does she know about 3A? Maybe just her RJC. Go on, try to unite 3A. Lets see if it is RJC or is it 3A in the end.
oh-my-god. I am so damn freaking pissed.
Anyway, congrates to 3C for winning Netball & Floorball. C generation go go. :D Love you guys.
As for 3A, we got 1st in TableTennis and 3rd in Netball. You guys worked hard. Well, other than that, the rest of them were gaying out in the classroom during the Games Carnival i heard. Dont ask me what they did. I was busy serving milo to teachers who i think were kind of forced to drink and silently suffer from diebeties due to the many of us serving. Anyway, I heard that they were making some wedding photo of somebody (not to be mentioned here). :D
See, who says 3A isnt united. Grow up man!
Tagbacks: Joel: LOL. Its freaky, i know! Him: Thanks dude. Paiseh, paiseh. Linked you. :)
It is a well-known fact that the Band got Silver for the recent SYF.
Dont cry people, you've tried your best. Theres always next year when you guys flaunt your marching and formations for Display Band SYF. Not to mention we'll not only clap, but also scream our lungs out for you then. 2008 will be one hell of a year cause our batch will make history. :D
School has been physically tiring man. Today was NAPFA 5 Items and tomorrow is TK Games Carnival. Last year, I remember i was damn psyched about this Games Carnival cause it was the finals for Netball, Volleyball and Relay. Not to mention 2C was the Champion Class. But this year, who gives a hoot about 3A? I think we only got 3rd for Netball. Its in the C blood i guess. 3C is in the finals for Netball, Floorball and there's still relay. I feel so jealous.
Sky's been drastic these days. Wheres the April cherry blossoms.
Modern day's Irony.
"if only there was an invention that will bring you here and now"
I remembered that the end of last year, Ms Ang showed us this trailer. Man, I was on the verge of tears.
This time, i couldnt hold them back anymore. Come on! Its really touching.
You may say its just an eye, whats the big deal? But the big deal lies on the love he has for her. Talk about the numerous pictures he took of her, the times they sped on his favorite bike together, the times he cared so much and took care of her.
Then, just a moment of carelessness.
He gave up his bike. He gave up his job. He gave up his profession. He gave up his most vital part, his eye. He even gave up what he loved most, that girl, because he knew, she liked another guy.
Everything, just for HER. I dont think a regular jock will.
I remember a phrase he said in the letter after she recovered.
"Although i cant see, go and see the wonderful sights and scenes on my behalf. Go and lead a wonderful and happy life on my behalf"
How can one give that amount of unconditional love? The last word echoed " I love you, I'm really sorry."
SO HOW CAN YOU CALL THAT NOT TOUCHING. OMG.
Well, for those that are watching for the sake of the chiobu there, heres some news for you.
sorry guys, for the previous super emo post. i wasnt right in my head and was going nuts. Breaking down, some would call it. Now, i am physically nuts cause the stupid bug caught me.
Fever, flu, sore throat and a aching body.Oh how timely.
Most say its because of late nights. Studying and using the computer, of course. I am just hoping i will be excused from NAPFA or at least miss a day of school because of the bug. Seriously, this bug is damn irritating. Anyway, thanks to those that were concerned and wished me to get well soon. Thanks guys. :)
Alot happened to me the past week and was furiously busy to actually blog it all out. Test week i will call it. Amaths on Monday, Chem and Chinese on Tuesday, Biology, Elect.Geog and Social Studies on Wednesday. Please say the teachers have lost their balls. But obviously, your dear girl here didnt study for all of them and is expecting to flunk all of them. Oh well. Lets see how it goes.
Thursday was supposingly an extremely happy day for me. Last session of Choices already and for cooking, we are supposed to prepare one dish that we learn, modify and present. My group, O.M.G! (Huimin, Me, Erwin and Edelweiss) really had a shock of our lives. This is what we did,
Heart Shaped Chicken Burgers!
And it ended up first. Tell me about it. I wonder how Mr Lee feels after eating it. Hmm..
Other than that, I must thank God for helping me achieve a 80% for my Emaths test the previous week. Really surprised and shocked, considering i didnt revise. Thanks be to God. :)
Went to Sarah's that night for the BeElectrified! meeting and heard Timothy's rantings of pretty girls from SAJC and his beloved Marcus Lye. Honestly, that Marcus Lye look really like a girl. Hmm. Luckily Timothy isnt gay.
Friday was spent going door to door at Punggol doing evangelizing. It wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. And during the worship, i was distracted by this horrendously cute creature.
Super cute Eliah
As for today, right after going to the doctor's and collecting a whole load of medicine, i went for the YouthAlive! @ Cornerstone. It was quite okay, besides the fact that i slept through the whole message thanks to the medicine. The Electric guitar workshop was really sexist cause other than me and Tabitha, there was only one other girl. The instructor taught very basic stuff like the CAGED system and scales before going on to the foot pedals and stuff. Most of the things i have already learned in Music Clef. Oh yea! I saw Dajie, the Cornerstone's electric guitarist that came to ROLC once to teach me electric guitar there! :D
Tommorow is going to be one long day and the next will be the beginning of the routine again. Life is spinning in circles. Keeping sanity is maybe one of the greatest challenge now.
"Lord, have your way in me"
Tagbacks: Haunts: Yeah man. NP spirit, lets keep it going. Give the sec2s a hard time eh? Him: Hi there Amirul! :) Thanks eh. Your blog is bloody neat. Link me okay? Thanks! Tabi : Haha, thanks. Yeah, but i didnt mean for it to be poetic. Just words from the heart. Michelle: thanks gurl! same to you. Mugging session one of these days? Az: thanks loser aka dude. Yeah, just losing my chill.
This is where i say i cant take it anymore. This is my limit. This is my turn to break down. I cant take your weight, you're pushing me down. I cant stand on my two feet when you have fallen. I just cant do it.
I sacrificed, listened, compromised. I know you did too. But why are you throwing all it back at me, every single day? "Sorries" of yesterday were too rampant and it seems to repeat in my head. Everyone is getting tired of the drama. One after another is making me on the run. So afraid, so pain.
Love is a sacrifice. And i know i did, so did you. I tried to be encouraging. I was there with you through the league. I tried to please you, I tried to be perfect. But i am near destruction.
Seems like i am pulling you into deep waters, are we even right? You were guilty. I was greedy. Is this where i should regret?
Meeting you wasnt a downfall of mine. Instead, i am your biggest mistake and best kept secret. There is where the pain lies, right there. Yes, there. I cant afford to give up on you. Understand that.
We are too similar. And we are too different. These fights are not going anywhere. I dont want to break. You're already a part sewed, infused, embossed and hammered into me.
Please dont vent your anger on me. Please dont reject me. Please dont scold me. Please dont give up on us.
Here it goes, I am SORRY. I am apologizing, wont you just listen? Sorry for being the whiny bitch. Sorry for not understanding. Sorry for not trying to be in your fucking position. Sorry for remaining fucking silent when i just dont feel like saying. Sorry for causing pointless conversations. Sorry for making you sleep late every night. Sorry for putting you at a disadvantage. Sorry for being that fucking bitch that is only concerned for HERSELF.
You were the reason why i was motivated. Everything relys on you. So now i am nothing, have nothing and is worth nothing. Things are just simply mad. And i need to take a breath.
Just dont say you're giving up on me. Dont say you are giving up on our relationship. I cant take it. I am going mad. How can i let all those memories be erased? How can you?!
I just want everything to go back. Back to where it started. I cant take it anymore. HELP.
I am giving you my all for this last race. Are you?
Yep, thats my temporary posting in NP. Satisfied or not? I cant decide. It can be good cause, other than SAW, there is no other better posting (e.g LAW or Resource). But bad cause i was actually eying another post. But seeing that the "other" post is already taken by those "enthu NP people", i dont think i stand any chance of getting that post any time soon. :(
Midyear schedule is out already. OHNO. that means mugging. Midyrs seem to have came early this year. Is it? Or is it just me? I think its just the "3A mugging blood" that is getting infused into me. Mugging and over competitive. Not something i really like in a class. Oh well. Shant complain anymore.
As for the weekends, its not TGIF(Thank God Its Friday) this week. Its TGFGF(Thank God For Good Friday) this time. Cant wait for thursday man! :) I think we can expect the piling of homework from teachers, as usual, giving their "hit and run" excuse of "its a long weekend". But who cares about that pile when i am going to spend ALL of those days with my church mates. :D Starting on thursday, i dont know how much FUN am i expecting. Say you're jealous, people. Oh, and did i forget to mention that i am going for YouthAlive! at Cornerstone? Electric guitar is the way to go!
3 tests tomorrow. I think i am getting a hang of the daily tests life. Weird thing is that i'm not tearing my hair out thanks to crazy mugging like the other 3A-ians. HAHA. I know. I'm SPECIAL.(Genius is for Suresh!)
Omg, i cant stop thinking of weekends! Stop it Joan.
Oh well.
"Promise me that all you say is true,
That's all I ask of you."
Tagbacks:
Nicole: Emo? Yeah, i guess so! You are HYPER la, my dear. Michelle: LOL! Yeah, Xiaowen sure is complex. That makes him interesting as well. Isnt it? And lets be EMO together. You still owe me a date remember? Joel: Yeah man. The lyrics are so true.