This is where i say i cant take it anymore.
This is my limit. This is my turn to break down. I cant take your weight, you're pushing me down. I cant stand on my two feet when you have fallen. I just cant do it.

I sacrificed, listened, compromised. I know you did too.
But why are you throwing all it back at me, every single day? "Sorries" of yesterday were too rampant and it seems to repeat in my head. Everyone is getting tired of the drama. One after another is making me on the run. So afraid, so pain.

Love is a sacrifice.
And i know i did, so did you.
I tried to be encouraging. I was there with you through the league. I tried to please you, I tried to be perfect.
But i am near destruction.

Seems like i am pulling you into deep waters, are we even right?
You were guilty. I was greedy. Is this where i should regret?

Meeting you wasnt a downfall of mine.
Instead, i am your biggest mistake and best kept secret. There is where the pain lies, right there. Yes, there.
I cant afford to give up on you. Understand that.

We are too similar. And we are too different.
These fights are not going anywhere. I dont want to break. You're already a part sewed, infused, embossed and hammered into me.

Please dont vent your anger on me. Please dont reject me. Please dont scold me. Please dont give up on us.

Here it goes, I am SORRY. I am apologizing, wont you just listen?
Sorry for being the whiny bitch. Sorry for not understanding. Sorry for not trying to be in your fucking position. Sorry for remaining fucking silent when i just dont feel like saying. Sorry for causing pointless conversations. Sorry for making you sleep late every night. Sorry for putting you at a disadvantage. Sorry for being that fucking bitch that is only concerned for HERSELF.

You were the reason why i was motivated. Everything relys on you. So now i am nothing, have nothing and is worth nothing. Things are just simply mad. And i need to take a breath.

Just dont say you're giving up on me. Dont say you are giving up on our relationship. I cant take it. I am going mad. How can i let all those memories be erased? How can you?!

I just want everything to go back. Back to where it started. I cant take it anymore. HELP.

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